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August 9, 2012

Book Review: Why Be Happy When You Could Be Normal? by Jeanette Winterson

Book Review:

Why Be Happy When You Could Be Normal? by Jeanette Winterson


By Rowena Roberts

I first read Winterson’s Oranges Are Not the Only Fruit as a teenager; that period characterised by a maelstrom of hormones and confusion; when you’re trying to sort out in your mind who you are from who you’ve always been brought up to be.

It was the ideal time for me to read it ― for two reasons.

Firstly, the main story perfectly exemplifies teenage turmoil and its associated striving for independence. Written with Northern grit and humour, a sense of the absurd woven in amongst tragedy and the mundane, and a smattering of religious melodrama, it is a semi-autobiographical account of an adopted child named Jeanette growing up in a fanatically Pentecostal home in a Lancashire mill town in the ‘60s and ‘70s. This childhood is dominated by a strong-willed, neurotic, and dogmatic mother; a mother who simply cannot cope with the fact that her daughter, destined from her ‘adoptive birth’ to be a missionary, instead discovers ‘forbidden’ love with another girl.

Secondly, the book’s form ― a cyclical, discontinuous narrative that incorporates allegorical fairytales and philosophical discourses alongside the main story ― opened new doors in my mind about the possibilities of storytelling that runs counter to a neat beginning, middle and end, which raises as many questions as it answers, and which somehow drives the point home that every story ever told is but a specific representation of universal themes and truths.

Since Oranges was first published 27 years ago, the exact definition of its ‘semi-autobiographical’ nature has often been speculated over by Winterson’s many nosey readers (myself included) and critics. Now, Jeanette reveals the truth about her childhood, explaining what did happen and what she left out of the novel, in Why Be Happy?, her first book’s “silent twin”.

Or does it?

Yes, her memoir confirms that the ‘real’ Jeanette was adopted; that her mother was indeed domineering and a religious obsessive; that as a child she was an outsider amongst her peers; that she fell in love ― and in bed ― with another girl, was discovered by her disapproving mother and was subsequently denounced and subject to an ‘exorcism’ by the church to which she belonged. It also reveals that there was no such person as “testifying Elsie”, the sympathetic character in Oranges who provides the young Jeanette with friendship and comfort; the reality, it seems, was “much lonelier than that”. It mentions the beatings; being locked out of the house or in the coal cellar overnight; the young Jeanette’s own violent, self-destructive nature that made her lash out at school and deliberately turn friends against her.

And yet, the author won’t allow us to blindly accept that the inclusion of more historical facts in Why Be Happy? means this book is ‘truer’ than Oranges. “Part fiction part fact is what life is,” Jeanette says. “And it is always a cover story… When we tell a story we exercise control, but in such a way as to leave a gap, an opening. It is a version, but never the final one.”

Why Be Happy? is, then, another version of Winterson’s story, written for another reason. Looking back at herself aged 25, when she wrote Oranges, Jeanette reveals, “I wrote my way out.” At that time, she needed to put her life into fiction to take control over it, wresting power away from her domineering mother. “I can’t remember a time when I wasn’t setting my story against hers,” she reflects. Why Be Happy? is written in response to another mother-tumult, which is explored in the second half of the book: the adult Jeanette’s recent search for and discovery of her birth mother.

For me, this book represents coping, on many levels.

Thematically, it reveals how language and literature always helped Jeanette to cope over the years. As a teenager, she read voraciously: “The more I read, the more I felt connected across time to other lives and deeper sympathies. I felt less isolated.” In later life, when she experiences a nervous breakdown and unsuccessfully attempts suicide, it is writing a children’s book for the “lost child” inside of her that brings her back from the brink. “Creativity is on the side of health,” she decides, “it isn’t the thing that drives us mad; it is the capacity in us that tries to save us from madness.”

This book, therefore, is not merely about coping; it is in itself an act of coping. It is not the book that Oranges was: a balanced work of art, an act of control over the author’s story and life. Although more mature, it also feels rougher, more confused, disjointed ― and understandably so. For this book is part of Jeanette’s self-prescribed therapy for her self-confessed period of “madness” that heralded her nervous breakdown; it is part of her journey towards control. “When I began this book I had no idea how it would turn out,” she confesses. “I was writing in real time. I was writing the past and discovering the future.” And, most importantly, she admits: “I have no idea what happens next.”

Why Be Happy? is not about resolution ― the author does not seem to have reached that point yet. When she speaks about her depressive, adoptive mother, referred to distantly as “Mrs Winterson”, her words are definite, dramatic and full of decision: “She was her own black hole that pulled in all the light.” Conversely, when speaking of her newly discovered birth mother, her words are light, tentative, lacking judgement; she cannot commit to the same depth or certainty of feeling. “All I can say,” she reveals, “is that I am pleased ― that is the right word ― that my mother is safe.” The conflict of being reunited with someone who is at once her mother and a stranger, who both gave her life and denied her a life, is raw and clear. “I don’t blame her and I am glad she made the choice she made. Clearly I am furious about it too. I have to hold these things together and feel them both/all.”

No, this book is not about resolution, not yet. Instead, it is about evolution. Once more, Jeanette is revisiting her past in order to deal with her present and give meaning to her future ― because, as she puts it, “events separated by years lie side by side imaginatively and emotionally”. We are all, as Jeanette says, “meaning-seeking creatures”, using language and stories to take events out of linear time and place them within an emotional and psychological context that helps us to comprehend them.

After all, isn’t every story ever told but a specific representation of universal themes and truths? A version, but never the final one? Or is that simply the central ‘truth’ that I have chosen to assign to this book?

Read it for yourself. Perhaps you’ll find a different truth.

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UD: BOOKS

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February 5, 2011

Eat Pray Love — Movie Review (DVD Release)

Ahead of the UK DVD/Blu-ray release of Eat Pray Love starring Julia Roberts on Monday 7 February 2011, and for those of you who missed it the first time around, here’s the movie review I wrote for Manchester Confidential last September.

Oh dear.

Even the ever luminous Julia Roberts who, as always, was aided and abetted by her pearly whites, couldn’t smile her way out of this one.

To be fair, it was always going to be a challenge dramatising what is, essentially, an interior journey. Add to that the legion of die-hard fans of the memoir on which this film is based and the heat was clearly on for whoever adapted it for the big screen.

Step forward the creator of hit TV show, Glee, Ryan Murphy; sprinkle a liberal dashing of good-looking blokes throughout; fold an assortment of lush, mouth-watering backdrops into the mix; set a Hollywood star on top; bake for an arse-numbing two hours and twenty minutes, et voilà! — you end up with this pile of tripe.

Roberts plays Liz Gilbert, a writer, who after several years of marriage and all the trappings of a successful career and lifestyle, decides this isn’t the life she envisioned for herself and wants out. After crying her eyes out to God on the bathroom floor one night, she decides to divorce her loving and seemingly innocuous husband, Stephen (Billy Crudup), and embark on a year-long quest of self-discovery. But not before she enjoys a rebound relationship with David (James Franco) — an actor Gilbert meets after watching him perform in a play she wrote.

After this relationship quickly deteriorates for reasons we’re never quite sure, she confides to her friend, Delia (Viola Davis), that she’s ‘lost her appetite for life’ and longs to ‘marvel at something.’

Soon after, she’s on her way. First of all, she spends several months in Rome, rediscovering the Art of Pleasure. For her, this entails learning the language and devouring all the gelato, pasta and wine she can. Cue countless close-ups of Roberts indulging in mouthful after mouthful of food. Oh, and young couples snogging at every turn. Because, of course, that’s all Italians ever do. Next is India, where she practises the Art of Devotion studying and praying in an ashram. Here she meets a fellow worshipper called Richard, played by a scene-stealing Richard Jenkins, who nicknames her ‘Groceries’ (because she eats so much) and sets her straight with a few spiritual home-truths.

She rounds off her year seeking balance (between pleasure and devotion) beneath the balmy skies of Bali. Here she parties hard with another hot young guy, before finally falling in love with an older Brazilian man called Felipe (Javier Bardem). I’m familiar with the book, but to be honest, was confused by the disjointed direction this movie took.

When not smiling beatifically and bathed in an ethereal golden halo of backlight, Roberts spends the rest of her time wearing a glib, monotone expression. But no-one’s buying it. Gilbert’s character is just too superficial to really care about. Here’s a travel writer with a self-confessed, forty-nine stamps in her passport, who longs to ‘marvel at something.’ “Lady,” I thought, “if you haven’t marvelled at anything by now, you ain’t never gonna get it.”

Then there’s the small matter of her ‘risking everything’ — but risking what, exactly? What the film fails to mention is Ms. Gilbert received a $200,000 advance from her publisher to write the book documenting her year-long sojourn.

I have no issue with the advance — she was an established writer with several successful books behind her. What I take umbrage with is the studio’s false premise and advertising tagline about ‘risking everything.’ Risk doesn’t come lined with an advance and the remainder of your belongings stowed in a lock-up somewhere. Pressure to come up with the goods, yes. Risk — nope, not buying it.Which leads me to another point: if I know I have to report back with a book documenting my shenanigans, what I’m not going to do is lie on a beach all day every day contemplating the meaning of life, while picking fluff out of my belly button: I’m going to be out there, looking for the story — meeting people, throwing myself into situations, creating moments. And it’s this air of contrivement that permeates every single scene of the movie.

Everything just seems so convenient and well, staged. I don’t think I’ve ever seen a film so self-aware. Perhaps it should come as no surprise that America’s Home Shopping Network partnered with the movie’s production company, Sony, to launch a three-day marketing campaign selling products themed around the movie.

Movies are larger-than-life and often exaggerated and fantastical. But Murphy and his co-writer Jennifer Salt have taken the essence of the original story, removed any trace of nuance, and blown it up into a saccharine, schmaltzy caricature of itself with our heroine sailing off into the sunset of newfound coupledom. After all, that’s What Women Want, right?

4/10

(Editor’s note: Thea Euryphaessa is author of Running into Myself: A Journey Through the Soul of the Feat (runningintomyself.com) – a book about her own quest for self-discovery. Hence she knows all about the ‘Eat Pray Love’ experience although she didn’t get a $200,000 advance.)


June 20, 2010

Running into Myself: A Journey Through the Soul of the Feat – Preface

The following excerpt is taken from Urban Deva founder, Thea Euryphaessa’s recently released memoir Running into Myself: A Journey Through the Soul of the Feat. If you’re a fan of Eat Pray LoveElizabeth Gilbert’s international best-seller and soon-to-be motion picture starring Julia Roberts, or Clarissa Pinkola Estés’ now classic New York Times best-seller Women Who Run with the Wolves, we recommend this incredible true story of one woman’s rite of passage from girl- to womanhood.

Limited edition signed copies of the book are available to buy direct from the publisher here (also ships overseas). The book is also available in the United States at Amazon.com.

Preface (Return with the Elixir)

I am telling myself the story of my life, stranger than song or fiction.

- Paddy McAloon, I Trawl the Megahertz


This book is an attempt to disentangle my destiny from my fate. It’s about a long-overdue, threshold-crossing to womanhood. And it marks The Return – the third and final stage of my initiation, fulfilling an old agreement made with my soul. It’s not a book about running. I run, yes, but that’s not the point of this book. In fact, there is no particular ‘point.’ Points seem contrived, convenient and conclusive. And my journey has been anything but.

Oftentimes the only way to make sense of a life and give it meaning is to share it within the context of a story. Some are supremely gifted at this. They have a knack, make it look easy. I wish this had been so for me. Composing this book has been a painstaking process, demanding all my mental and emotional resources.

I enjoy writing. After dancing, it’s my most natural means of self-expression. But it’s a means to an end. My focus is to nurture the soul and live an authentic life. To help do this I write – not to be creative, but to express energy. Writing helps mirror myself to myself; it provides a container in which the transformative process can unfold, a way to track and trace the soul’s meanderings.

Once thoughts, images and intuitions are on the page, I sort through them, hold them up to the light for reflection, turn them over in my mind. Like dreams, they don’t always make sense – at least not immediately. They can be vague, indecisive and contrary. I also find the flat, one-dimensional nature of words frustrating. They restrict and rigidify. They’re inadequate at expressing the fullness and ambiguity of a human life. But they intrigue and enchant me all the same. And so I keep writing.

Further challenges involve my perfectionist tendencies. I like everything just so. I much prefer writing essays. That way, I can retain absolute control over a piece, stay on point. So to make the leap to the rambling expanse of a book exposes my weaknesses and shortcomings as a writer. In composing this book I’ve had to accept my work can never be perfect. I often lose my way, veer off track – a humbling process mirroring the soul’s journey as it grows down and takes root within the limitations of a human life.

Then there are those whose fate has entwined with mine. There’s an old saying in alchemy: As Without, So Within. I believe those with whom we interact are outer reflections of an inner psychic process. Because of this emotional entanglement, I know my perspective will be distorted. To compensate, I try to be as honest as possible about my version of events. If I’ve been petulant, infantile or provoking, I’ll say so. Sometimes emotions may get the better of me and I’ll speculate about others’ behavioural patterns and traits. But for the most part, I rein it in.

So this book is a story within stories, a life within Life. Life that does not run in an orderly, linear fashion, but spirals, backtracks, spins off at tangents and raises more questions than it answers. Not everything will be boxed off and neatly concluded by the end of the book. Along the way I share pivotal moments, hopes and dreams, setbacks and journal entries. There are mythological ideas, psychological theories and spiritual concepts. These may not always make sense. As the quote above says, I’m telling myself the story of my life. So if I labour a point or circle an issue, it’s more a frustrated attempt to clarify my soul’s nebulous, inarticulate messages, to ascertain a pattern, extricate meaning.

This book also reflects the organic process of a life’s unfolding and becoming. Intuition tells me this is a book within books, a springboard – an opportunity to share, and discuss. Not all of my thoughts and ideas are carved in stone. Many are ephemeral. But I don’t have time to wait until they’re fully formed – my soul demands expression now.

In tribal cultures, when an initiate returns home after a quest they’re expected to share their experiences. That’s because the lessons learnt aren’t strictly for the individual but for the benefit of the group. As the initiate tells their story, the story takes on a life of its own, its essence revealed. People don’t think of stories as having souls. But the soul manifests as the kinks and knotty imperfections – the seeming irregularities that perplex so many. In our ‘plastic fantastic.’ high-speed modern culture, we’ve lost touch with the soul. We’re uncomfortable with it. In many cases we’re afraid of it. And so we rampantly edit, refine and process until nothing remains but a soulless shell. But grainy mishaps highlight our humanness. They add warmth, remind us of our imperfection. They expose the vulnerability involved in the process of creativity, the struggle of a complicated, multifaceted soul seeking expression.

My decision to self-publish honours the soul’s wrinkles and knotty irregularities. I didn’t want the book’s essence to be extracted in the centrifuge of profit-driven publishing  or shoe-horned into an unnatural shape, its soul contaminated and diluted by the uninitiated opinions of others. I wasn’t willing to compromise. As the song says:

I’ll go it alone, that’s how it must be

I can’t be right for somebody else

If I’m not right for me

I gotta  be free, I’ve just gotta be free

Daring to try, to do it or die

I’ve gotta be me.

-Walter Marks, I’ve Gotta Be Me

And so I follow my soul as it sets out its stall in the early chapters. I watch as it introduces itself and reiterates statements time and again before gradually relaxing into the story. Sometimes I cringe at its audacious, naive, bombastic nature. I ponder its uptight, defensive, secretive tendencies. Other times I grow bored with its incessant ramblings, wonder where it’s going. But all the while I stay with it, try to honour its paradoxical, elusive essence as best I can.

So I encourage the reader to relax and not to get too hung up or too bogged down in my mercurial meanderings. As psychologist Carl Jung says in his memoir Memories, Dreams, Reflections, ‘I can only make direct statements, only “tell stories.” Whether or not the stories are “true” is not the problem. The only question is whether what I tell is my fable, my truth.’

(Thea Euryphaessa is hereby identified as the author of this work in accordance with Section 77 of the Copyright, Designs and Patent Act 1988.)

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